Have you ever felt?

Have you ever felt so alone and nothing makes sense? Have you ever felt so down when everybody around you is so high up there? Have you ever felt so depressed because your parent have a high expectation on you? Have you ever felt that you just want everybody understand you just for once? Have you ever felt that you just want to cry and the world seems unfair for you? Have you ever felt that you just want happiness for once and the world never let you have it? That is what I felt all of this time.

I had been up there for once, well twice exactly. Just for a second that I want to feel how is it feel like, the world never let me to feel it. I'm in my darkest part of my life for a moment. Every time I want to keep my head up I just can't do it. Life is a cycle. There is time that you have the time of your life. But, don't ever forget there is also time when you just losing faith in hopes when you down there. Pain. Every second moving you feel like you making a huge mistake. When you just want someones to believes that you can do it but actually there is no one does.

They were there when you are at the center of the world. But, they were gone when you at the hardest time for the moment. They said they know how it is feel like but actually you know that they just want you to feel better. You said you're okay but deep inside you feel like if you can move somewhere that nobody knows you and expect nothing great from you, you really want to move there and forget all the problem. But, the fact is problem follows you everywhere you go. You just need to face it with a smile and keep strong.

I always remember what goes around comes around. It may takes time but great things will happen eventually. Be strong, keep strong and stay strong.

xoxo, E.